Duffy’s blog entry
Where to begin on today….Such prayers answered and prayers to ask for…
The day started out somewhat chaotic. Kaylee is getting so many fluids that if I don’t wake up hourly to change her, she will soak thru her diaper, clothes and the bed! I guess my body really needed the sleep b/c I apparently hit snooze and slept right on thru until the nurse came in to check her vitals this morning. After waking up, I immediately needed to clean and change k, who was not pleased. She had a better breakfast than yesterday, but still nothing like they told me to expect with her on these steroids (which apparently is yet to come) They said to expect her mood changes… to cry one minute, laugh the next and be angry after and repeat, and THAT is happening…but the food part is slowly getting better. She had phases today on hating life, to barely napping, to crying hysterically if I wasn’t cuddling with her, to high fiving friends that came to visit, to laughing when we went to see a large choo choo train they have here. All over the map in emotions! Its ok…its part of this process!
The great news of the day~ The Chief of the Oncology dept. came to meet with me again today (k reallllllllly doesn’t like him) but he had some interesting news. “Her blood results are very good. It might scare you b/c her white blood count is so low to 0, and she is VERY susceptible to getting an infection at this point with no blood cells to fight anything off. I assure you, this is what we want. We want the chemo to get rid of those cells. Her platelet transfusion yesterday brought up her platelet count like we wanted and her reaction to the chemo is also something we are quite pleased with.” My response “You clearly were not here during World War III of trying to bathe her last night. ha ha” DR: “No, No, that is the steroids job and also very normal. She will be all over the place emotionally and Prednisone doesn’t hold a candle to what she is taking, so know that her fussiness and moaning, and crying are normal. With that said, we always feel like if a patient is responding in a positive way like Kaylee, we feel like with two strong parents, the child will do better at healing in their own environment that they are used to. Although she is at a MUCH higher risk or getting an infection…… (Wait for it…….) We are releasing Kaylee to go home TOMORROW!” (Holy Moly~ Praise God right?!!!) One would think I would be jumping up and down with excitement, right? What did I do? Tried not to cry while being filled with total & utter FEAR! My mind was all over the place with things like; but we aren’t ready, How will I know if she needs blood, or platelets? I have no idea what I’m doing, she could get so sick, and we will need a U-Haul to get all our stuff out, what do I do? Now, what I actually said was, “I’m sorry, what did you say!?” He laughed and explained that K’s chemo and surgical procedures will all be taking place on the same days, so we will need to be at the clinic (next door where they do outpatient chemo) every Monday, and to have a” go bag” in the car for every appt in case our appt turns into hospital stays. Chris and I have to attend 2 classes tomorrow before being released on ‘Parenting a child with Leukemia’, & handling meds, stats and when to call the Dr. The Dr. looked very pleased with his “good news” when leaving my room, and that is when I let the fear of being alone during the day with her..My child with Leukemia…without a nurse nearby to ask when I have a question, or concern for them to take a look at… consumed me, and I cried. Of course I cried lol. I was expecting to do what they told us; to live at the hospital until September 2nd. I wasn’t prepared for this. This is terrifying yet awesome news!
Although the idea is a HUGE praise God that she is responding well enough to go home, it is a HUGE prayer request that God keeps her healthy while she is at home since she is SO at risk for getting sick! We have a LOOOOONG way to go (We aren’t even ½ way thru phase 1 of “Induction” yet.)
We are totally relying on God to help us with fear and doubt that we will do the correct things. (Need to keep repeating to myself Isaiah 41:13! I mean, I learned how to crush pills tonight and fill a syringe for her twice a day steroids…I learned what to give her if she is vomiting, I learned how to stop a bloody nose, I learned what to pack in a “GO” bag (which is much like what I packed for delivering Kaylee!) There will be plenty that we will learn tomorrow too! This will be another chance to test our strength, her strength and what else God can do with the power of prayer that so many of you are doing!
So, tonight I challenge you to keep praying for her, and our family. We are thanking God for letting us attempt this at home where she feels more comfortable and free. This is still a battle we are intending on beating to the core!
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for your prayers! Clearly, they are working! Let’s keep it up for TEAM KAYLEE!
************(we finally picked out THE verse we think is fitting for Kaylee’s battle. So this verse will actually be on the shirts we are working on getting made.
Jeremiah 29:11~ For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
20 thoughts on “August 14th (14 days of living in the hospital)”
Hey Kaylee, Duffy and Chris~
Just wanted you to know that we are continuing to think of you and sending best wishes to you all. I am so very excited you get to take Kaylee home! Kaylee, keep kicking butt, you are the strongest 17 month old I have ever known about!
AMAZING !!!!!!! I’m crying just reading this , in joy ! Strong parents you are , who made a strong child ! Love y’all !!!!!!
I’m so happy to hear how great Kaylee’s progress is! My family is continuing to pray for Kaylee, you, & Chris. It is inspiring to hear how strong you two are being in spite of the situation. You are an awesome Momma!!!
So happy to hear your wonderful news! Despite the fear you will all feel so much better in your own home and environment. Continuing to pray for healing and strength as this journey continues.
Awesome news! If you need meals, etc please let me know! My kids go back to school on the 26th so I will be kid free in the mornings!
Duffy, what amazing news! That is awesome that Kaylee will get to be in a more normal environment and feel like a little kid again. All the emotions you are having are normal. You guys are wonderful parents for Kaylee and will do great at home! I am sure the first few days will be nerve racking but things will start to flow into a “new” routine soon enough. Will continue to pray that Kaylee stays infection free, that her body continues to fight, and that her parents have the guidance they need.
Sending warm wishes your way!
This just made my heart leap. How wonderful for your family to be able to be in the comfort of your own home. I will continue to pray.
Know that we are praying for Kaylee and your family. Stay strong God is with you.
Hallelujah Duffy! I understand your fears and apprehensions, but PLEASE know that God has his arms wrapped around your baby and she’s doing SO GREAT!!! PS… That was a perfect passage for her. Xoxo
Keeping all of you in continuous prayer. Great news how well she is doing.
Sweet Duffy…God is watching over you & will guide you through whatever it is you need to do for Kaylee! You know it, I know it & all of your friends & family will be here to help & support you all, too. I am on your prayer warrior team & will gladly cook, clean or do whatever you need me to do…anytime….just say the word 🙂 Big hugs to you, Chris & Kaylee…xoxo
Molly’s Mom 🙂
Prayers are being said! God Bless You ALL.
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What great news Duffy and Chris!! God is really watching over you! He knows that you can do this, you just need to believe in yourself!! Once again let me know if you need something since I am so close.
I can’t wait to order my t-shirt!!
Kaylee is such a fighter!!!!!
That is great news. I can’t imagine what you are feeling and how scared you must be as you bring her home, however God will be with you and help you through it all. I can’t wait to order a t-shirt.
“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
That is such great news! Praying for you all. Let me know when you’re home – I’d love to bring you guys a meal.
Y’all are doing a fantastic job so far and I know God will strengthen you and provide you the confidence to succeed at home in taking care of Kaylee. Her morale will be so much better at home than in the hospital. I’m so proud of y’all for the way you have taken on this challenge. Your natural parenting instincts God has blessed you with will come through when you need them most at home. Y’all can do this! By the way, I love the verse y’all chose; it’s simply perfect!
Lots of LOVE and PRAYERS sent your way,
Lisa, Victor, & Colton
Happy to hear Kaylee will be going home tomorrow. Even though it is a new step in her recovery, god will get you through it. Praying for all three of you.
Duffy and Chris – of course you are afraid, but from all I hear you two can handle whatever comes your way. You are a very strong family. Kaylee will continue to receive our prayers. God bless.
Happy to hear that Kaylee will be going home tomorrow. God will be right by your side to help you through the next step toward her cure. Continuing prayers for all of you.
Duffy, what awesome news. I know you are scared but God will guide you thru these new paths. Glad the treatment is working like it is suppose to. You guys are on my mind constantly and thoughts and prayers coming from Chi-town. ~FROG